the Foundation (Past): Your situation may have involved someone you could describe as the Clever Planner, and was marked by a time of a successful independent project or a minor advantageous shortcut.
the Focus (Present): You are currently balancing seeking powerful spiritual guidance from helpful tradition, with seeking stability through joining a valued established institution.
the Outcome (Future): Your path leads you towards launching your own successful venture. As you go forward, remember this: trust your tools.