the Foundation (Past): Your situation may have involved someone you could describe as a Peaceful Contenter, and was marked by a time of a feeling of inadequacy is overcome by celebrating external success.
the Focus (Present): You are currently balancing Fear / self-doubt or lack of self-discipline, with Financial timidity leading to missed opportunities.
the Outcome (Future): Your path leads you towards a new opportunity for research- writing or clear communication is found. As you go forward, remember this: Embrace the pursuit of truth- your quick mind is a powerful asset..